Compulsive POAS

Apparently there's a name for me! It's POAS! Compulsive Pee On A Stick girl! Geez. I was cleaning today and found the hpt I took this morning knocked off my nightstand and of course the neurotic person in me saw a faint blue line even though I know not to trust such a late blooming line. But sure enough I tore the test apart to get a closer look swearing I saw a faint blue line. Hopes were risen and I decided that surely I won't get AF overnight and have high hcg levels in the am, but as soon as I went to the bathroom that hated red spot showed up on my TP. Depressed now. Knew I shouldn't of done it but I did. Now I just wish AF would officially appear instead of scant spottiness so I can start over! Wish me luck to stay sane!